“-pain is enough you don’t have to beat yourself up because of pain, that’s another layer you don’t need”- Timothée Chalamet

This film feels like looking back at core memory with the nostalgic rose tinted glasses, while still acknowledging the hardships, embarrassment and grief. The surreal look and film feels like someone learning to appreciate that love that once had when it’s gone, feels like the whole film is within that moment at the end by the fire looking back…

“Could you imagine falling in love with a man like me, by the way, hypothetically?”

we are born under a system of greed but we can fight against that to build community, rehabilitation is death of one’s own self, we must die before we truly live. 

A film about contrast, the contrast between the family business and the family, right and wrong, heaven and hell, and real or fabricated. 

The film plays with the conversation of balance and community which…

This did numbers on my religious trauma 

We gotta stop having these characters that feel way too personal to me, my emotions can’t handle it. While I feel pieces of me and my experiences in different times of my life this first watch I find myself especially connected to Sister Barnes and I don’t know how to feel about that currently.

While not Mormon I was raised baptist and this overall feels like an almost perfect symbolic representation of my…